12/3/07

My beloved sad days..

“ I have never felt so compelled to write before this. The compulsion is more personal than anything else. These are one of those moments when my mind is totally lost in a hysterical crisis of my intellect. An enormous turmoil churns within me and I don’t know what to make out of it. I feel ugly, unkempt and bitter… an agonising hatred for myself seems to have over powered me somehow and forces me to hate myself even more each day. A horrific sense of shame, a satirically meted out self-pity and a tragic conflict of purposes have made a tremendous and unfailing irony out of my little lived and a lot pondered life.”

4 comments:

Sourav said...
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Sourav said...

Accepting facts of life in the way it comes makes an easy going. It would be unwise to ponder on the twist and turns. Rather it should add a new chapter with pages of experience. Filling the heart with sense of dejection spreads a negative vibration. It drains the energy that you could use to reform the problem. Take a peep through the window to the outside world. You’ll feel better. With a clear mind, heart open to the unexpected, and willingness to make a difference, I think you should look at eternity and take his energy to be successful in all your goals.
Have a great time dear friend!! Think positive!!

reema said...

mah personal favourite this is....

shrimoyee said...

I can relate to this as much......