when i was five i wanted to be called 'Shomi' so that i dont forget my best friend who i left behind while changing cities. somedays i wanted to be called Leela because she was my faviourite character from a book.. I have always wanted to be 'Mia' from Pulp Fiction. and then one day someone lovingly named me 'Mausami'. all my life i have sought after different things and named me differently each time. thinking i were it.
our names should suggest our personalities. but our vageries are such that one name limits it somehow.
well.. i could not go without a name but maybe thats why i never name my posts.
none of my writing bear titles so they could be ambiguous.
honestly, i could never decide on one and also giving a title somehow makes writing more authorised, directive.
when a friend quriously asked for the reasons.. i thought to my self "shotti to!"
After long years of keeping grudges like a sophisticated adult. one day of screaming, crying and badmouthing everyone feels therepeutic.
today the monkeys rampaged my neighbourhood. they tore down most trees, stole from houses left everyone intimidated.
more than for food, it was as if they struck for their shrinking habitats. every hate word with utter vengance.
in the end.. by the sight of them disappearing in the horizon like bandits or the turks after rampage.
and as my personal aggression subsided... i felt an equal calm..
i felt like them