That was the very first night, something got taken away from me, that night of our adolescence which we were so eager to grow out of.
When we first kissed in the closet. you were impatient and i was fascinated,
trying to gather all the romance from the kiss even though it was mutually experimental.
Then came love, and then the end of it, life happened, livelihood emerged, prerogatives, desires, complexities, struggles appeared and I got baked and toasted like a nice cookie.

in small measures some parts of myself loosened and dissipated.I left some of myself in numerous places, countless nights and days.

Sometimes I think that i am no better than wild cattle trying to outlast the desert
Just when i remember that one day in early childhood when I had tightened my fist and held it over my heart.

Even if the entire being dissipates, I don't think that fist could ever be opened.
That part of myself safely locked away.